Updated: Apr 26
One of my goals for this year is to settle into alignment and truly surrender to the universe. I hustled HARD in 2019. 2018 was a rough year mentally and I totally burnt out. This year I am comfortable and confident in all of the work I did professionally and personally in 2019 and want to relax into the stream of abundance that I am fully open to receiving. Its almost like I did all the planting in 2019 and 2020 feels like the year to reap it all.
This all sounds amazing, but what I wasn’t prepared for is how difficult it is to just be still! Last year, I took 6 weeks off to travel. The first few days in Mexico with zero agenda and zero work to do was TOUGH. I just couldn’t settle into the stillness. I started to get frustrated wondering if my anxiety was creeping back in because with the stillness came the colliding thoughts. This was the exact reason for taking six weeks off. To slow down, relax and be still, but it felt as if all that I hadn’t processed and was able to avoid (by being busy) was coming crashing down. I literally could not keep still.
Has anyone else experienced this? I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was almost avoiding being quiet with myself by filing my schedule with to-do lists. There was ALWAYS something that needed to be done. And if you let it, there always will be.
This year I am challenging myself to make ‘quiet’ a part of my everyday routine. Not just the penciled in daily routine that calls for meditation, but truly embracing slow. Truly slowing down, saying no, declining invitations, working smart, eliminating the hustle and embracing the journey and enjoying the process.
The journey to slow, appreciation and fulfillment doesn’t always come naturally. But this year I am consciously working on slowing down in daily life.